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TROUBLE WITH CONTROL AGAIN-LIKE A NEVER ENDING CYCLE OR URGES AND CRAVINGS NO LONGER ABLE TO COMPLETELY CONTROL BUT MUST HIDE IT FROM THE OTHERS JUST LIKE ME FOR SAFETY........PART OF MY TRUE SELF IS AWAKEN NOW IT IS TIME FOR THE OTHERS TO COME FORTH
HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII'S MY NAME IS CYNTYA ITS SAID WITH AN "H" HEHE MY MOMS FAULT. IM IN HIGHSCHOOL HAVE LOTS OF FREINDS, RANDOMLY HYPER AND FULL OF ENERGY, LOVE ANIMALS/POETRY/MUSIC/WRITING STORIES/WRITING STORIES/READIN/FRENDS/FAMILY/CANDY/ANYONE OR ANYTHIN THAT CAN MAKE ME LAUGH. I'M OPEN TO ALMOST ANYTHING, I HATE PREPPY GIRLY STUFF AND TOO MUCH PINK IT'S YUKY!!!!!!! OH AND WHEN PEOPLE CARE TOO MUCH ABOUT LOOKS THERE IS NO POINT EVERYONE IS THE SAME ON THE INSIDE AND SOME PEOPLE ARE PRETTY TO COVER HOW UGLY THEY REALLY ARE. LOOKS MEAN NOTHING TO ME ESPECIALLY MY OWN. I'M INTO ALL TYPES OF MUSIC AS LONG AS IT HAS EMOTIONS AND FEELINGS IN IT OR IT MAKES ME WANT TO DANCE EVEN THOUGH I'M NOT THAT GOOD *giggles*. I CAN BE SHY, SUPER HAPY, TIRED, AND CHILDISH SOMETIMES, BUT IT'S FOR FUN ANYWAYS HOW BORING IT IS TO BE SERIOUS A LOT. EVEN THOUGH I SAY THAT I CAN BE SERIOUS WHEN IT'S NEEDED. YOU SHOULD NEVER EVER MAKE ME MAD. WORSE THING TO EVER DO IN YOUR WHOLE LIFE NOT KIDDING. YOUR LIFE MIGHT TURN TO HEL IF YOU EVER DO AND TRY TO TALK WITH ME AND THEIR WILL BE PEOPLE WHO WOULD WANT TO HURT YOU. I UNDERSTAND LOTS OF THINGS SO I CAN YOU WITH ANY PROBLEM YOU HAVE OR IF YOU JUST WANT SOMEONE TO TALK TO ABOUT IT. I'LL HELP AND COMFORT YOU AS MUCH AS I CAN. I CAN FEEL OTHER PEOPLE'S EMOTIONS AS LONG AS I HAVE A CONNECTION WITH THEM, BUT I'VE GOTTEN STRONGER SO EMOTIONS OF STRANGERS WILL COME TO ME. HMMMMMMM I CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE SO IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT ME JUST ASK ME K? *smiles*.
this is a song for everyone i havn't helped, want to help, hurt on accident.i'm not selfish in any way but i am fake. i never deserve anyone in my life.the song is perfect for part of my life. i am glad i found it plus its by one of my favorite bands.

ME!!!! KINDA HAHA IVE GOT LONG BLAK HAIR W BLOND @ DA END
DEDICATED TO MY PROTECTOR/SECOND HALF/BEST FRIEND JAYLYNE-i wish you could be in the physical world with me but you're still here and do your best for me ^^
A POEM I RANDOMLY THOT OF HEHE:you loved me you hated me, you broke my heart into a thousand pieces and mended it back together. you easily hurt me everyday, you had complete control of me. now you'll be the one to suffer, but the thing is i won't come back to you. i'll leave you with nothing......nothin, but the bitterness and hatred built inside me for all these years. you said that you loved me and you just did all that to me like nothing. to end your suffering by death wouldn't be enough for me so i'll torture you until the time is right, then when you truely realize how much you need me that is when i show you mercy. i'll spare your life, but make you disappear from mine and my memory. a new love will come to me and he'll treat me the oppisite of what you did. you will never know what it is like to be loved by me. ANOTHER 1:my heart slowly being filled with darkness and turning to grey. i once thought i loved, but never did i love anyone truely. my whole life was just a waste of time for the earth. never knowing my own true emotions wasn't thought to be painful enough so god made it so i could suffer more with the power noone would understand. i don't blame him.......i don't blame anyone at all. all i want is to be se free from this torturess life and to never be reborn. i will become the most loved and be surrounded by people that love and care for me, but i'll be alone no matter what they do or say. born to be alone and for one purpose that is never to be told. i'll ony have peace when i sleep and never wake up..........death is at any corner anyways. ANOTHER 1: laughing death right in the face, him thinking he can take me by suprise. i accept him anywhere at any time, as long as it is me and noone else. i'll hate him and kill him myself when he comes for me.....which i doubt will be anytime soon for god has set a goal for me *sigh*. death will just have to wait for me to take his place and he can rest enternally happy for what i did for him.
poems by my favorite rapper who should be called a messenger of his death R.I.P TUPAC SHUKAR you deserve to be alive.....
I Cry by Tupac

Sometimes when I'm alone
I Cry,
Cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confiding,
I would cry among my treasured friend,
but who do you know that stops that long,
to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry,
so painful and sad.
And sometimes...
I Cry
and no one cares about why.
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And Tomorrow by Tupac

Today is filled with anger, fueled with hidden hate.
Scared of being outkast, afraid of common fate.
Today is build on tragedies which no one want's to face.
Nightmares to humanity and morally disgraced.
Tonight is filled with Rage, violence in the air.
Children bred with ruthlessness cause no one at home cares.
Tonight I lay my head down but the pressure never stops,
knowing that my sanity content when I'm droped.
But tomorrow I see change, a chance to build a new,
build on spirit intent of heart and ideas based on truth.
Tomorrow I wake with second wind and strong because of pride.
I know I fought with all my heart to keep the dream alive.
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Fallen Star by Tupac

They could never understand
what you set out to do
instead they chose to
ridicule you
when you got weak
they loved the sight
of your dimming
and flickering starlight
How could they understand what was so intricate
to be loved by so many, so intimate
they wanted to see your lifeless corpse
this way you could not alter the course
of ignorance that they have set
to make my people forget
what they have done for much to long
to just forget and carry on
I had loved u forever because of who you are
and now I mourn our fallen star.
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A young heart with an old soul by Tupac

How can there be peace?
How can I be in the depths of solitude
When there are two inside of me?
This duo in me causes the perfect opportunity
To learn and live twice as fast
As those who accept simplicity...

ME N MY BIG BRO VISHUSKAHN-he's a great big bro i love him very much and we have a lot in common mostly when it comes to our poetry
ME N MY BIG BRO JAMES-he's an awsome understanding big bro we love each other very much and have a strong connection between us and have a lot in common
ME N MY BIG BRO DMCKING999-hehehe an awsome big bro who's caring funny and very sweet i love him very much
ME N MY BIG BRO TRAVIS35-awsome big bro i love very much
MY NEW BIG BRO REDFOXFIVE-awsome funny caring big bro we have a ot in common get along very well and can have the wierdest conversations with sometimes hehe even though he's a new big bro i love him as well
ME N MY BIG SIS ANGEOUDEM0N-hella awsome big sis who's like me and gets crazy like i do she's caring sweet and super funny i love her big time
ME N MY LIL SIS FADE-hahahahaha this is such an awsome lil sis she is exactly like me hehe i love very much
ME N MY LIL SIS ZOMBIELOAN-cool sis i barely get to talk with
ME N MY BEST FREND MOONANGEL-she is awsome sweet caring and emotional even if she doesnt show it much me and her have a lot in common and care about each other very much i love her too
ME N MY M BEST FREND RACUNO20-well this guy is super funny and sweet he's like an older brother but more then that at the same time he's like my protector since he doesnt like people messing with me and cares about how i feel everyday hehe i love him very much
MY BEST BUDY IN REAL LIFE PHYCOPORCELIANDOLL-psycho people you're in for a challenge if you think you can go against her hehehe we have a lot in common mostly personality wise bbut im still way more different then her she shows her demonic side more then i do but thats because she doesnt have the samething as me hehe she thinks it scary when im mad and hates when i want to kill someone or when im sad hehe i love you kwistin
ME W EVERYBODY WHO LIKES ME (IM CLUELES W DIS STUFF WEN IT COMES 2 ME) FOR SOME REASON THE ONLY WAY I CAN TELL SOMEONE LIKES ME IS BECAUSE I DREAM OF THEM OR SOMEONE TELLS ME (MY FRIENDS HATE HOW CLUELESS I AM AND THAT I GET SUPRISED WHEN I FIND OUT) ITS QUITE SAD